7/8/2008

can’t put my finger on it
can’t find the words to fit the verse
can’t seem to form a sentence
to truly relay this distance
this incessant burning disinterest
this scathing independence
this heedless and relentless
need to be
utterly and completely
on my own
this unnatural and unhealthy
want to be
alone

how can I sit in a room with no view
perfectly fine spending all of my time
with only the glow
of a soulless TV
or the dull old hum
of a computer screen
as my poor excuse
for company?

no more hiding from the sun
I need to step outside
give myself the fucking chance
chance to feel alive