6/12/2007

no more tens and no more twenties
spent my life savings on tryin’ to be funny
on trying to be attractive
and on trying to get the gist
but the fact of the moment is
I’m too full of shit
my words don’t hold lessons
my mind is distressing
and I’m too tired and angered
to speak without heat through my teeth
don’t know when it happened
don’t know how it started
but my mind departed
and my heart does all the talking
and since my heart keeps fucking breaking
there’s no giving and/or taking
it’s all hurt and pain each day
all fire and brimstone at night
always fight fight fight
like somehow I’ll be all right
but I don’t know how to
I can’t fix this shit on my own
I tried so damn hard
and I ended up alone
broken and sullen and depressed with myself
no body to tell me
you’ll be fine in time
no body to help me
to sit there at night
straight through to morning
hide the sun from my eyes
because sunrise kicks my ass
makes me remember what passed
and what stays in the past
I never want to listen
I never want to speak
I just want to be
complete