7/19/2008

as soon as you were gone
I cut all my hair off
I had no reason to hide
what was on my mind
anymore
as soon as you were gone
I started sleeping deep and long
dreaming up anything
and not waking feeling
guilty for it
as soon as you were gone
as soon as I was on
my own
as soon as you had left me
I finally started to see
ultimately
I should have been the one
to leave
--
you look sweet enough to coddle
and coo to until you’re asleep
and maybe you won’t tear
a gaping hole in me
but I’ve been wrong before
misjudged time and again
so I’ll try not to be surprised
if we hit the same ol’ end
I’m old enough to know
I’m not meant to live alone
and I’m young enough to make
the same damn dumb mistakes

sometimes when I’m too tired
to fight off what helps me sleep
I feel your back against me
as if your curled up under these sheets
oh I know I should ignore it
my minds just being tricky
but I’m too close to sleep to fight it
and so I let it be