9/2/2010

I woke up and I broke out
and I’m never going back
swore to the high heavens
that I wouldn’t live with that
that hurt that pull that missing link
that strain that makes a weak man drink
that loss that turns the world to black
I’ll stick with the light
yeah I’m never going back

I remember feeling better away
in a passenger seat on a pitch black street
ghostly highways filled my days
my nights were spent with stars
I wrote my notes on whatever I could
and wanted to be as far
as far from normal as a young blood could be
yeah that’s me
always searching for a reason to leave
yeah that’s me
focused on the haves and the lacks
used to be me
yeah I’m never going back

I’ll work these fingers to the bone
‘til I remember just what it’s like
to go to bed with an empty head
and a body too heavy to rise
feeling like I was fighting an army all day
feeling like something needs to fucking change
because if I keep working my life away
I just may go out of my brain
these evenings that leave me beaten to death
with a voice in my head and the world at my back
taking each breath with a hollowed out chest
yeah I’m never going back

I don’t need you like I used to
oh I don’t need you at all
so if you want to take it back
oh if you want to take it back
yeah if you want to take it back
yeah I’m never going back