3/29/2010

I wrote a song to fit your smile
I sat in the cold for a little while
let the shivering take hold
I did everything I’d been told
and left myself out of the equation
just a sleeping situation
where I’d rather be tangled with you
unable to fit quite right
so we stay wide awake all night
kissing each others cheeks and necks
a peck on the lips
like a kiss of death
kills the conversation
we drift into a sedation
that doesn’t last for long
and this bedtime tango goes on
and on and on until you’re gone
sometimes you just can’t hide
the world will creep inside
you’ll search for the proper time
to say what’s on your mind
but nothing seems to fit
no words can work for this
but my skin to your skin
hands and arms and minds entwined
under covers in a dull morning light
I just might
miss you more than I intend to
I might have
kissed you more than I was meant to
but it might
it might not be all too bad.

3/22/2010

can’t find the words to fit the verse
the way to properly relay
how I feel these days
I know I love you and I miss you
and I wish you all the best
but I want you to come back and lay
your head upon my chest
breathe out and in and out again
whisper a soft goodnight
weave a dream in bed with me
and wake with the sunrise
crawl around this tired house
and creak these weak old boards
lace our fingers arms and legs
hide from the world indoors
who needs these weeks of anxious feet
these nights so tossed and turned
I’d rather wake to someone I can’t face
than face one more night alone
hold me like you know me
though you never cared to learn
I’m willing to ignore the fact
if you’re willing to come back
come back to bed.

3/17/2010

stuck with thinking on dying
these days I’ve been minding
my own business
for the past two weeks
everything else around me
seems
trivial
fuck it all

I know the world won’t stop this month
the sun will shine and the rain will come
I’ll sleep too late or rise and shine
and spend my time on someone else’s time
I’ll sleep too late or rise and shine
pretend I’m better
pretend it’s fine
swallow that lump in my throat
never let the dissent show
the anger at whatever is sitting above
dragging away the people we love
as soon as we realize
how big an influence on our lives
they’ve been

sometimes I look outside
feeling the burn of freshly blurred eyes
swallow my sense of pride
and let out a shaky sigh
and I wonder
how do you say goodbye
--
lay in bed with my head to your head
my chin drifting into the curve of your neck
my lips grazing against that cheek as you speak
a bedtime story to me
once upon a time before we’d officially met
some guy who did something to mess with your head
you grew and you learned not to fall for that shit
now you stay closed and won’t let anyone in
so here we lay with fingers laced
arms entangled and legs locked tight
lips to lips for a goodnight kiss
but we’re distant and constantly concerned
this is how you sleep sound when you’re hurt
holding each other so tight
but sleeping alone every night
good night. good night.

3/7/2010

you keep telling me that
it’s not your fault
and you know oh you know
you’ve done nothing wrong
and you sleep on your own
and you sleep so at ease
or you sleep in his arms
and think nothing of me

it’s just waking that gets me
I’m taking this quickly
I won’t go I won’t go
slow
I’m not taking it easy
I’m taking this with me
I won’t go I won’t go
home

I’m hitting the road

it’s not to forget
it’s to let it
let it go
I’ve drive until I don’t know why
or how to get back home
I’ll drive myself fucking crazy
I’ve done it before
and I’ll do it again
I’m dead-fucking-sure
there’s got to be something
some right word to say
to spit at your face
as I’m leaving this space

raise one finger high
and show me how you feel
no need for words tonight
the gestures much more real
raise one finger high
and show me how you feel
no need for words tonight
the gestures much more real
raise one finger high
and show me how you feel
no need for words tonight
the gestures much more real
raise one finger high
I’ll show you how I feel
no need for words tonight
no need for words tonight
no need for words tonight
no need for words tonight...